Where we grew up, there was an idol, a poster, a fridge magnet and a calendar of Shiva in every household. Our fathers would sit at the altar every morning and carry admirable rituals of offering all elements to the idols.
Lord Shiva was a stereotype for someone who is very disciplined and very blue in the throat.
When I fell in love the first time and then abandoned the first time, for me Shiva became the God who refused to pay any heed to Goddess Parvati until she worked very hard to prove her love for the man.
Shiva became the one who tests your loyalty.
Shiva became the God of Stoners for me. What does this God do for stoners? Who cares after a drag!
Post quarter life crisis, I allowed my existing personality to destroy itself. Since I had heard over and over that Shiva is the creator and the destroyer, I allowed the processes of creation and destruction to enter and affect my life at will.
And like all meditations, mine helped me look deeper into the man.
Today, I love Shiva for him being time (remember, "Mai Kaal Houn").
As a human, if I have to look unto a God because of what that energy is capable of doing, then I choose to look at Shiva, and admire him for he is not a process or an approach. He is just a state of consciousness!
Beyond creation & beyond destruction…
Beyond birth and beyond death…
With No past and no future…
I just experience a love dialogue while speaking to Shiva, while listening, while singing, dancing.
“Whatever is the act, I still choose to be aware”.
“My mind is wandering & wavering but I feel centered within my own self”.
Harmony and balance to life!
This is the time when there is constant enjoyment as the self-energy is expanding!
Shiva, the lord of time, you have never seem more awesome to me. I guess, all in due time!
About the Author: Sharaiya is a yogini and many things between the sky and ocean. By profession she is a filmmaker and by person, a joker. Her expression comes from all the colors that she adds to life!
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